Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Slipping

Baseball started a few weeks ago and my faith has really tanked, like seriously tanked since then. It's not because I'm around guys who don't know The Lord it's more because I've been procrastinating my work and have barley spent any time at all in the word and even less in genuine prayer. I can feel the wordly desires and passions creep right back in and the things I used to do fall right back into my daily routine. As I slowly move away from serving God and more towards serving myself I can feel that spiritual filter, of what's right and wrong (with conviction included) start to fade away. The more I son and the more regularly I do it, the easier it become and the less repentance happens. Lust, swearing, anger, adultery are all swarming in in this tough time. I make some really feeble attempts to get back on track but I know that wont happen until I get back into the word and the spirit fills me again. I know I can't get back on track for more than a moment on my own strength. I feel myself being nonchalant about this "slip" but it's more than a slip. What scares me are the verses that say He will know them by their fruit and even those who come to me and say Lord Lord will not enter. This lack of faith/suffering/strength is worrying me and John piper makes a good point in saying that all these sins are not the reason but the product. The reason is that I'm not satisfied in my salvation, in God so I'm seeking te world. When I'm not being filled by God what am I feeding myself with? Lord I pray for your grace in this that you would remove these wordly desires and reclaims your rightful place in my life, I need you urgently in my weakness

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